Then, I wake up one morning and I feel better. I can breathe. I am not as tired. I can think. I can smile. I can see through the fog that my kids are living life, perhaps at its most beautiful, effortlessly. I realize, my efforts must be winning and I have gotten my iron to absorb.
This morning my boys were so excited because I made them their favorite special breakfast, The One-Eyed monster. I found the idea from an old post from Cooking Dad. I make mine a little differently. For example, I toast the bread beforehand. Then, cut out the hole. I also leave out the stuff the boys do not like on their eggs; mayo ( for me, the most disgusting stuff on earth and fattening!), sliced tomatoes, and ketchup.
|From one-eyed monster|
Now, my kids always like the breakfasts I make them, especially the constantly-starving teenage daughter, but this breakfast always gets a "Christmas morning" reaction from the boys. That always makes me feel good.
Then, there is Gabby. My baby daughter finds a fascination with life that I find particularly amazing. Every morning we follow the boys to school on our bike. Well, at least far enough to see them close to the school. My eldest son finds it a little embarrassing if we go all the way to the campus, so we just linger a ways back. Then, Gabby and I head off to explore the subdivision. Pretty much our route is the same everyday and we see the same things everyday, but you would never know it by looking at her. She squeals every time we see the same birds. She goes nuts when we see the same dogs with the same owners. She goes crazy when we see squirrels, which like dogs of any size, are puppies. Every furry creature is a puppy to her, except cats (which are gats) and birds (which are something I can not quite make out). When she watches Animal Planet with her brothers, elephants and tigers are also puppies.
She makes it hard to not want to keep biking, even when I am exhausted and out of breath, because her delight over simple things is wonderful, just like with her brothers and even her teen-aged sister.
Don't even get me started on how much Gabby loves Baby Einstein and applauds them like she is seeing every episode for the first time, even when it has been millions.
Lesson for today and everyday: Appreciate life like a child.